There are so many things that happened these past few days. So many emotions.
I've started to realize that I have a sudden dislike for people. I view most 'regular' people to be shallow and slow. Case in point:
I was at the Royals game and the whole time, this guy was saying stupid shit and was using really vulgar language in a comedic way. And everyone around me thought he was the funniest person on the face of the planet. Because we all know that when you say, "Oh, his name is Shin-Soo Choo? Does he say his name when he sneezes?", you're the most hilarious thing. Because toilet humor and racist humor is effin' funny.
Plus, I've decided I have major trust issues. I don't know if it's me just feeling like I can't connect with guys anymore, or if it's just my past fucking me over. I just don't believe it when people tell me that I'm an angel or a great person. I almost can't stand it when someone says I'm an angel. I truly feel like no one means it and that it's just them trying to make me feel better. I don't need to feel better, I just need the truth. I need the unadulterated version of how you feel about me.
About Me
- A.J.
- I'm a multi-faceted individual. I'm gay, a dancer, a listener to music no one has ever heard of, a driver of a convertable, a poet, someone who has seen the hardness and gentleness the world can give. I'm a victim, a saviour, a heart-breaker. I don't care if you believe anything I say. I know some of my experiences are outlandish. But they are still my experiences. I write in a stream of conciousness and edit things many times. Nothing is perfect, and that includes me.
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